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Thursday, 05 November 2009

  • A girl I knew, but wasn't friends with, was killed on the railroad tracks right behind my school...It's so, so awful. She was such a happy person...And...So smart, and beautiful, and an amazing dancer...

    I wish I had gotten the chance to know her better. It shows that you have to make your own opportunities; waiting for one won't achieve anything in the end.

    ...It's just awful :(


    When the storm clouds gather 'round you, and heavy rains descend
    Just remember that death is not the end
    And there's no one there to comfort you, with a helpin' hand to lend
    Just remember that death is not the end



    I'm in shock. I'm speechless...

  • Stories

    There's so many stories I have ideas for, but I'm not letting myself start writing because I know I have oh-so-many other things that should be done...It's making me sad, because I want to write write write.

Wednesday, 04 November 2009

  • The boy. I don't know. Bestie asked me what my reaction was to the fact that he has a girlfriend now. "Eh. Whatever. Why would I care?". True. But that's not all of it. I don't think I'm over it, and maybe it's because there's nobody else to like... IhavenolifeandIwanttomeetsomebodyI'dlikethatwouldlikemetoojusttoseehowthatwouldturnout.

    But I swear there's still some good in me
    And I think if you stuck around you'd see
    All the honest attempts at integrity, I was had
    Maybe if you helped me, I'd get it right
    I lie awake almost every night, staring at the ceiling
    Wondering why I feel so bad, why I feel so bad
    But I swear, I swear, I swear I'll never get sad
    ("Missy" - The Airborne Toxic Event)

    I don't know...Just because? Does that make me wicked wicked desperate? I don't want to be... :(
    I don't need a guy, but that doesn't stop me from wanting one...

    Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?

    Oh gosh…Smile, I think. Although I love eyes, but the smile can make you melt <3




  • Formal Letter

         I can't exactly tell you what the reason is behind the fact that my notecards will not be done for the proper due date. Part of it is definitely the reason that I had not found and read my secondary sources with enough time planned for actually doing the notecards. I found my first source yesterday, and read it today. I found my secondary source today, and have not read it yet. Yes, I know that it is my fault. I am completely willing to take all the blame because I deserve it. On the other hand I still have my excuses, however feeble they might be. I did have a lot of homework this weekend, yesterday, and today. Part of the reason for this is again my procrastination. If I had not kept all of my neuro notes for this weekend, for example, I would have had time and enrgy to do English homework over the weekend as well. Nevertheless, considering how much homework I had to do over the weekend, and the fact that I did a lot of homework, including all of which was due on Monday, all on Sunday because of other circumstances that contained me from doing it on Friday and Saturday, I feel like I did well. Yesterday I had no more time or energy to do English homework because of all the other homework that I had to do; part of which was left over due to my procrastination, and part of which was assigned yesterday. I did everything due today, and again left English for the next day; seeing how it is time- and energy-consuming.
         As I sit here, waiting for my secondary source to print, I have decided that I will read it right now, as well as do my French homework, and then go to bed. My notecards will not be done. Tomorrow, when my dad wakes me up, I will get ready for school, and then ask him if I can can get called out of either French and English, or just English. I will explain the reasons behind the fact that my notecards are not finished, and the importance I hold in handing them in for full credit. This is the last week of the first quarter, and so far I have an 'A' average in English. Since this is my first quarter of my senior year of high school, it is necessarry for me to have the best grades I can on my transcript, and I do not want my English grade to go down. I know that getting called out of English but coming afterwards still technically requires me to hand in my notecards then. If I manage to finish them in the time I have off, I will of course hand them in. Otherwise, I hope my teacher doesn't notice. That is the best I can do, because I can not skip the whole day of school. I have an AP psych test, and review for the neuro test we have tomorrow. I ask to skip French to give me more time to finish my notecards, and so that it looks less suspicious that I am only getting called out of English.
         I know that my parents will not be pleased, and once again, I know that it is entirely my fault that I will not have my notecards finished. Nevertheless, I am doing my best at the moment, and I hope that my reasons and explanations have been well understood.
         My apologies.

Saturday, 31 October 2009

  • I don't know much of what I feel lately...

    Last night I wanted to find somebody and escape and sit in the dark in blankets, and whisper. It was good enough, though.

    The boy has a girlfriend. I don't know whether I still like him, and what I felt when I found that out. I just don't know.

    Bestie said last night that she's glad that he never replied to me. I get what she's saying...And I almost agree.

    I'm not in the mood...

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